There’s a time in your path when I think you seriously look at where you are and where you are headed. Because this path is always changing, always growing, the journey is never-ending. There are always new paths to follow, forks in the road asking you which way you wish to go. New opportunities present themselves and you have no choice but to go along for the ride, let the current of energy take you where it will. There is always a surprise and this I have discovered for myself lately.
I’ve long classified myself as a Green Witch and to that end I still consider myself a Green Witch but there is another path that is slowly calling me and that is the path of the Hedge Witch. I don’t even know what it means for me but things have been aligning themselves for some time now. I have been getting astral bleed through at the most random of times – usually when my vision is slightly out of focus (most often when I’m reading and watching tv and go from the page to the screen – it takes a moment to adjust). I feel as though I am getting close to something within myself, it’s an interesting exploration but there is still much to be uncovered or understood. But some realisations have been popping up in my life.
I’ve realised I do enjoy a more simplistic approach to practicing my Craft, I’ve never been one for elaborate, convoluted rituals, and honestly I don’t see the point in them. I’m sure for some it becomes a beautiful experience but I get bored – Aries attention span. If you’re too busy remembering to pick up this or light that, I think you get lost in the details instead of feeling the experience.
The other day I made some black salt for my store and whilst I did this I had some candle spells working on the stove (used tealights anointed with essential oil – such fantastic things tealights) and this was enjoyable for me, it felt more natural to me. This is the point of an individual’s path I reckon, it feeling natural, the best thing was at the end of it I felt a little drained. Why is this a good thing? Because it tells me there is growth on my path, previously when I did spellwork I’d feel the same as before I started, there wasn’t anything physical to tell me that part of me, of my energy had moved forward to help the spell manifest. I feel like I am beginning to connect with that part of myself. And it feels wonderful.
Honestly I think the realisation came to me when I began creating things for my store, I felt a deeper connection than I ever had and on some level I knew this was the part of me that had been crying for release for some time. I have begun to tentatively move forward, feeling my way along. When the time is right to fully commit myself to this path I will know. I think it will be when the season truly turns from this horrendous summer into the cooler tones of autumn, the season that calls to me more so than any other.
I’m looking forward to the changes this will bring into my life, I’m not sure how I will put it all together and be the witch I am, but I am sure I will find my way. Somehow.
I think I’ll leave it there for now, I’m constantly thinking, analyzing and so I type while doing this, sometimes I end up with epically long posts with no point, I know I need to take the time to do some inner exploration and see what I hear and feel. For right now I am off to make an infused mandrake oil and dream ointment.